Staggered.

Be acted upon and then take action.     

Nearly paralyzed by the Japanese earthquake, tsunami and now nuclear catastrophe.   How does one go on with "business as usual".   Pam says such a shaking requires a shift.  Our usual has shifted as well.  I'll think about that.

I will say today though, that again, posting has been my breath.   I've been trying to seek out someone in the nuclear energy realm who will help me keep up the hope that our move to that source hasn't just also evaporated.  The press has terrified us all.  As of today, we have a serious crisis and I am reluctantly reading about the plant operations and rescue which will likely result in deadly radiation for some.   But the real story is the 2,000 people who have washed up on a beach and the older people and babies who are without homes when it is below freezing.   Anyway, my heart bleeds, my spirit mourns and that's about all I can do.

I began this bit today because as I said, I still wished to have a post next week.   I still was hoping that the people who know about this could lead me to a positive sliver.   There is one.  There is a type of green nuclear, it involves thorium, the Chinese know about it, some Americans know about, and get this I know about it!  Go figure.   I can glance at Roger Pielke's blog today, agree with him and know what the commentors are writing about.  All because of posting.  All because I have figured out a way to take action that makes me not feel powerless when a worldwide crisis runs me over.

who knew.   amen.

so just who are my people?

So oddly, that's a question that permeates all of my lives but my place here is about my posters.   I'll dissect them a little:   a few are clones of myself, several others friends of those near-hearted people and I might guess aligned pretty closely with my circumstances and thinking.   There are a few enough older than me that they do this as an entertainment and to be nice.  And the others?? All young very engaged, smart young people.   ah ha. 


The need to think here today is again the news and the key, major shifting worldwide which is almost entirely overwhelming.   Even if you discount the silent long range worry about carbon and oil, budgets, overthrows, labor demonstrations, unemployment, rising food prices, Michele Bachmann; it can hardly get worse.   [Actually it did just get worse b/c Newt Gingrich just declared his intention to run for President.]  What is everyone else doing?   If you aren't bankrolling lobbyists and think tanks, what are you doing?   If you aren't pedaling as fast as you can to protect your money, what are you doing?   If helping at the food shelf each week isn't enough, what else do you do?

So clear to me again, that in my circles anyway, I'm a downer.  But, my need to push for change, to read and think about what's on our hands has found an outlet.  It's isn't the talk of the day.  [Did solving cultural problems ever used to be the talk of the day?]  Encouraging those who aren't bankrolled might a way to summarize...

Remember Karen that this IS your path.  I drifted and watched and wandered boldly through the crack in the door and I came here.   It's the right use of my talents.  I know why I have this kind of life and the couple decades stretching ahead of me.   A lot of the time I'm very, very invigorated by that.   As my cousin Barb practically hollered out from GA last week..... " this is VERY empowering".  

It is right for some others too, but I need to weigh every week what I bring forward.  I need to consider how much opining I do and I need to think constantly of the young people who are with me.   What an honor that is. 

Mostly think of the kids.  Find things that can help THEM feel like the world can get a hold of things, that their future is something vigorous and brilliant.